Tired of being fluffy...

 

No, this is not a post about the big diet I am going on to lose weight.  I am not referring to that fluff in my life.  However, it is kind of  a part of it.  I am a First World Glutton.  Of food, stuff, entertainment, and all other forms of excess.  I do not feel First World Privileged.  I feel First World Trapped.

 

 

I am making a public decree to lose the Fluff.  If this gal can give up soda pop after 40 years (only 5 in the last 32 days) she can also give up her addiction to the things/ways of the world.  No I am not saying all of the things in my life are bad, but they are in excess and they are choking the life out of me.  Literally.  My heart is heavy my friend. 

 

 

I can name about a 100 things I want right now materialistically, but the things that I am needing are rest, peace, contentment, passion, and purpose.  I cannot buy those things.  They come from weeding through the muck and prioritizing the important things. 

 

 

This is going to be a real struggle for this material girl.  That is a sad but true statement.  Sacrifice and denial are not part of my M.O., that means method of operation ( I looked it up).  I want the peace that comes from simplicity, the rest that comes from contentment, and the joy that comes from time to fulfill the innermost parts of my being. 

 

 

I am ready to breath deeply again......