So our world right now is crazy weird to be honest. We are still quarantined to a degree, I am still working from home. Most things are still closed or operating under restricted guidelines. I was finally able to see my Doctor and have an out patient surgery scheduled for later this week that will hopefully resolve some health issues I have been dealing with for a long time. More on that another time....
Now, our country is dealing with riots and racial unrest. I know that as a white woman in a small rural community I am not dealing with it like others nation wide but the effects are still far reaching. I still feel the hurt and pain of a world that is turning on itself. I am seeing uncertainty and fear manifesting in my own life because of what the country is experiencing and what potentially it could begin to experience as the consequences of what is currently happening. A fallen economy, no safety, people and families in conflict with others as well as themselves. The world for my children felt scary enough before 2020 began and now feels dangerous, uncertain, and sad.
I am not sure how to process everything that is going on. I often feel paralyzed and anxious to deal with the day to day. I feel the need to hide my head in the sand but to also watch every piece of news so that I can be prepared... but prepared for what? Each day feels as if something new and big comes out of nowhere.
I am thankful for my faith and the foundational truth that God is in control of all and that he will work everything together for his glory. I am thankful to have friends and family to discuss the issues of today with, regardless of the fact there are no clear answers and no one is able to say it will get better. We just don't know right now but the world's crazy has us all experiencing the same emotions, even if they manifest differently in all of our lives.
Right now my prayer is for PEACE in the storm and PEACE for your storm as well.
